| Hey every1,
I just want to thank my friends, the ones who have made me realize that I am not, indeed, an idiot, I just needed to get my head out of my ass and think clearly 4 once. I've finally been able to think in terms of, "You are a good person, not everything is your fault, and you need to love yourself. If you don't then no one will." So here's what that thought process has given me to say.
Donnie: I'm sorry for being wierd, i just had to has out some residual guilt from Manny's death. I didn't mean to pile on you, and I apologize for that crazy e-mail I sent you the other day. I do love you, and I most likely always will. You're my best friend, and the only person ever to tell me that I have a sexy voice. I will keep that in mind in case I ever decide to become a sexphone operator. Lol. I love you so much and hope you and Jason last a lifetime.
"Daimond": Thank you for being able to tell me that, again, I'm not stupid. You're right. I think that by helping you I was able to finish healing myself. I've been through so much and I see a kindred spirit in you.
Everyone I didn't mention: You guys are indespensable to me. You have helped me so much. Sarah, Tiffany, Brittany, I love you girls, you're my angels! Meggy, I've probably only spoken to you all of three times, but I have to say, without the laugh-my-ass-off commentary you and Donnie engage in, I would probably be a very depressed person. You have made me see the lighter side of life. Everyone I have come inot contact with in the last year has given me so much wisdom, and helped me to appreciate the laughter, tears, anger, love and miracle of each coming day that much more. I love you all and I hope I never lose touch with you guys. Last, but mos def not least are my girls Jean and Kaylynn. You're both like sisters to me. Kaylynn, you're the sister who was hotter than me, but i was smarter than you (you know I'm only playing). I love you like you're my blood, and even though we've had our issues in the past, I will always turn to you when i need someone to yell at me when I'm being a complete whore. Jean, you're the sister who has made me feel comfortable in my own skin. We are the doublemint twins, minust the physical likeness. I swear our brains are clones! Lol.
I just want everybody in my life to know that without you I wouldn't be the rock, the trainwreck, the bitch, the lover, the caregiver, the advisor, and the tragic hero I am now. I love you all and I thank you for dealing with me even though I probably don't deserve you.
I love you,
Eddie |
